did i just say that i've like, done with camps? idham said if i didn't go for the briefing today (10am at SARIMBUN, gay!) he'd take it as i don't want it. i thought everything was decided when i woke up at noon, but germaine had to call.
rah! 22 god forsaken groups at sarimbun. please?? primary school some more... if they drown in the mud track i wouldn't even know!! i'd have to look for bubbles! it's like having 2 camps going on at the same time, and there's even 2 2 i/cs, germs and isk.
this camp's like, super power. siti told me the confirmed trainers are like, andi, rin, hisyam, kai tum, kai wet wet, wati, sarah b, alethia, has, ayub... plus the rest cannot remember. 22 groups or what... still 2 trainers down i think. yesterday it was 7.
pls don't let me be buddied with kai again. like, enough is enough.
and like, pls don't let it rain. pls pls pls pls pls pls pls.
i dream of tioman i dream of having fun i dream of being happy all day long i dream of quiet i dream of being awake i dream of green tea i dream of my friend-to-be macbook i dream of a new phone i dream of new music i dream of peace i dream of going away a while alone i dream of going back to the past i dream of new friends i dream of a new purpose in life i dream of swimming i dream of training
back from 19-21 teck whye pri. pri 4, wth. the more energy my kids have, the more energy i get drained of.
rock climbing with shim was postponed to today. had fun, but it was hard belaying her. keep getting dragged forward. that fat cow.
i have decided... heck with money, i don't care. tmr's camp will pay my bills for this month and the last, and this will be my friggin' last camp. i'll give my best to it, which will be more than can be said for my previous camp. new town sec... but it was a screwed up school anyways. i know, not an excuse.
then i'll retire with lib and cheryl, and make money selling tissue paper in underpasses.
right, waiting for tmr. back to the world where 'fuck you, bitch' is an affectionate endearment. like, literally, not sarcasm.
must really do something about my permanent state of stoneness. now i even wake up feeling tired. then i get bored and pissed easily. then i piss off everyone around me.
all i want to do is to be at home alone, everyone else gone somewhere, with my comp and jay chou in the background.
it gets to the point that i even get irritated when my mum comes home.
kaoz. nearly became unskilled labourer working in a buttons factory endlessly sorting out different colours. discovered at 12noon today that the deadline for tuition loan was like, today. basket. some more bank close half day on saturdays... and i was on my way to town to collect my aunt's u-zap. i-zap. zap-zap.
clearly remembered that many people were waiting for their matriculation packs before applying for the tuition loan. fragh! mass messaged to save anyone from my almost devastating fate.
and i thought everything would be okay once my form went into the pretty white box... sigh.
went out with shim today finally. ate crap and watched Pirates, where there was momentary confusion on my part as to whether chest in Dead Man's Chest refered to boxes or more organic things. movie was total CRACK, haven't watched a laugh out loud movie for so long (no, not even Cars, no matter what you say, chiobu :P)
johnny depp is the shit, man. keira knightley is the prettiest thing ever in her golden gown, and orlando bloom still can't act. 4.5 stars :)
so shim's really going to LSE. can't seem to get used to the idea. she's been around forever, even if we haven't been as close as we once were. but soon she'll be half a world away... i'm afraid of growing apart and forgetting. i don't know...
crapped with her about growing up. since she's the one i've known and stuck with the longest. i cannot get used to us growing up. to me growing up. only that i'm not really growing up, maybe because i don't want to grow up. she said she has to find me a boyfriend before she leaves, and i thought again what a miracle it is for someone you like to actually like you back. i wonder how many people will reject me and how many i will reject before i find someone right, or before i settle for second best.
this topic's a bitch. now am feeling mechanholic.
Are you where you wanted to be? Did you sell off all of your gold Did you trade it in? Did you wait for love Or settle for somebody to hold?
back from the NUS ODAC CAMP, in which i was a PARTICIPANT. had much FUN, have to type in CAPS, still like it VERY MUCH even after SLEEPING it off.
GROUP was CRACK! CHEERS were semiNEW SELF was KIAM PA FACILITATORS were BORING CAMP was goodSLACK PROGRAMME was FUN LOGIS PPLE were POOR THINGS CAMPERS were DEAD and CHINESE OVERALL was GOOD
group consisted of COUNCILLOR! baichi tiao GUOYI, FENG! bu siang tiao JULIE, AH BENG! ai ji tiao DING YAN, SEXY! sui bian tiao VERON, BLUEBLACK! bollywood tiao KAIWEN, VEGETARIAN! you yong tiao PEIQI, SCREWED-UP! screwed up tiao PEI YUN, SAMBALPEAS! ziang shi tiao HUIMIN, QUIET! starfish tiao JASMINE, VERYLONG! mei you tiao ARIANA, and RETARD! retro tiao ME.
group is totally CRACK. spontaneous games a lot, and found JULIE, who i LUV and have mo qi with :D she's super high and happy and mama-ish, very like jy. is also pretty and has a nice tan XD love to listen to her say 'bu siang tiao' and 'screwed up'.
and also AH BENG, who's like cao-on. never met anyone so on before. ask him to strip for pole dance really strip @_@. i remember YL when trying to get sebas to strip for Ms YL, like going to rob his virginity liddat. very cool ah beng :). respect.
KAIWEN always gets injured, her thighs are like the world map, can find continents and contours and all colour coded one, erps. is super kayak buddy, strokes got power one, we like, shoot forward v fast XD
and PEI YUN has smelly face but is very funny and crack. knees and toes, knees and toes!
and all the girls who are so cool and great with songs :) most spontaneous group or what? XD
fav parts of camp were the canal walk, the sandcastle buliding, the ubin hike waterbomb station, and all the tiu tiu tiu and tiao tiao tiao games :) and also being asked by the kayak IC whether i was a canoeist XD when i was really an shuang. cheap thrill but... :P
least fav parts of camp were the campfire and the night cycling. and watching the belayers belay. watch too much will faint and die one. it's like, 2-step belaying... no brake plus sometimes can have only 2 fingers on the rope. vrah...
good programme. interesting activities with a lot of slack time but badly executed. campers and exco and helpers all not high enough. station ics don't know their stuff. also, councillors and commitees don't know what to do when you guai lan them. end up when they keep quiet like you making trouble liddat :(
two camps past and cannot be bothered to blog about them. work is getting very monotonous and tedious, wish school will start soon. is a conflict, because have not enough money saved. realise just 10 seconds ago that at this rate, will become the kind of people who retire by 75 because they just cannot save enough money.
remember good days when just started work when there was a plan to stop by end may and spend the last month or so enjoying life. like, travelling everywhere. now don't even have money to take mrt cos of adult fare. rah!
(should learn to use proper nouns. like 'i'. and capital letters.)
