i'm suspicious of the many good things that are happening. i actually got a good grade for my unit two essay, which i wrote with a kind of defeated attitude. i was really going to give up on it until my final conference, where DD highlighted mcginn's thesis.
it feels like someone up there is trying to distract me with pointing to the sunrise while dark clouds gather in the west.
in a nutshell, karma isn't working.
i shouldn't have scored how i did with the kind of effort i put into my studies. i mean, i'm really terrified with how slack i'm being, and i'm picking up now, but i'm afraid i'm like, clearing out my alloted good luck for the sem and leaving my bad luck to be like, unleashed during the finals. i remember this was how i was like just before my J1 block test, for which i got a probably unprecedented FFFO.
doesn't help i'm still at chapter 1 for management, and attended only 2 lectures for econs. the backload of work is HUGE.
i really hope this sem works out well. but i've really got a bad feeling. most of all that i'll get complacent and have to eat my own words when i get my CAP.
