Sunday, April 29, 2007
11:48 PM



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12:35 AM




During the course of my residence at the chatterbox (which I currently am at home and missing dearly and thus blogging about), we discovered this spiffy new religion called the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster. I was supremely delighted, if only because I have decided that the next time I get a new form with those pesky religion fields to fill in, I'll have something exciting to put in instead of the old boring '-', 'nil', 'n/a', or 'quasi-buddhist' or 'OS X' or 'shapely legs'.

(I have renounced temporarily OS X as my religion because I recently discovered even the Computer Care Centre can't do anything about its Unable to Webcast sickness.)

So.

What am i exactly talking about? The FSM is a branch of the Intelligent Design religions, and it has thousands of followers. Wikipedia has a description of the Flying Spaghetti Monster (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flying_spaghetti_monster), of which i quote:

--The central belief is that there is an invisible and undetectable Flying Spaghetti Monster, which created the entire universe "after drinking heavily."[2] All evidence for evolution was planted by the Flying Spaghetti Monster, in an effort to test Pastafarians' faith; a form of the Omphalos hypothesis. When scientific measurements, such as radiocarbon dating, are made, the Flying Spaghetti Monster "is there changing the results with His Noodly Appendage."[5] ...

--The Pastafarian belief of heaven stresses these two points: (1) it has beer volcanos as far as the eye can see, and (2) it has a stripper factory."[11]...

--The official conclusion to prayers is "RAmen", contained in certain sections of The Gospel of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, and so on. It is a portmanteau of the Semitic term "Amen" (used in Judaism, Christianity, and Islam) and Ramen, a noodle. ...

--The first public exposure of the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster and its eponymous deity can be dated to January 2005, when Bobby Henderson sent his open letter regarding the FSM and the teaching of intelligent design in science classes to the Kansas Board of Education. Henderson suggested that his theory and intelligent design had equal validity, stating "if the Intelligent Design theory is not based on faith, but instead another scientific theory, as is claimed, then you must also allow our theory to be taught, as it is also based on science, not on faith."[5]





The Church also has an equally spiffy logo which looks startlingly like my crabby and crabby II, which only serves to assure me that I am destined to become one of its worshippers. I fantasize of starting schools of teaching featuring my own takes of its Gospel. Just like Christianity has its Protestants, Catholics and such, the FSM could have Bolognaise, Carbonara, Herbs n' Cheese and so on.

Oh my, religious fervours do make people hungry...

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Thursday, April 26, 2007
6:49 PM

my favourite people from the chatterbox :)

we all agreed that this is a feel good photo. each of us represent a component of the feelings here. it's a photo nice enough for you to click and view the larger picture :)



meishi, blogging from chatterbox :)

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
2:09 PM


out of curiosity i went to do my MBTI test again, and got surprisingly different results from when i last took it in sec 3. for those who haven't heard about it, the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator) is a commercial personality test that categorizes four aspects of your personality: extraversion/introversion, method of perception, method of judgement, and the degree to which you use perception/judgement in your life.

extraversion/introversion is denoted by E/I. if i don't remember wrongly it is an indicator of the way you prefer to focus your attention, inwards or outwards.

methods of perception are limited to sensing (S) or intuitive (N). it's the way you prefer to take in information. the tester i had last time explained that sensing people have a tendency to be more practical and detail-oriented, while intuitive people are think in more abstract and romantic terms, and tend to ignore the asterick at the end of the price tag. for example, a sensing person's first response to a stalk of rose will be that it'll die soon, and an intuitive person will perhaps think in terms of its meanings and connotations.

methods of judgement is basically whether you make your decisions based more on feelings (F) or rationale (thinking, T). a feeling person tends to be impulsive, a thinking person more.... well, i dont' know. anal? reserved? self-denying?

degree of perception/judgement, P or J, tells you your preference in the two, whether you prefer to be more open to ideas and less judgemental, or you prefer the converse. i remember P people tend to be more tolerant of differences, more disorganised and more flexible in their approach to handling things. J people need to have everything neatly placed, tend to like closure (like always finish the book she's reading), and plan things beforehand.

my 15 year old results were ISFP, which recommended that i become a nurse because i'm a quiet sympathetic soul, and which i laughed out loud at. but still, at that point of time i thought it fit me very well. my introvert-extravert ratio was like 21:8 (72% introvert), and my perception-judgement ratio was i remember even worse. it basically told me i was a spectacular lazy bum.

my new 20 year old results are ENFP, which is seriously weird because i thought i answered the questions is roughly the same way as i did before. i took at screencap of the ratios, it's all the way at the top. i didn't know what to make of it, but these are some of the descriptions of ENFP people:

Idealist - Champion
idealists come out of the NF combination, NF-P are advocates, NF-J are mentors. all are within the category of idealists, the champions are the subdivision of advocates i think. here is the page i got it from.

here's a part of the description of champions:
Champions consider intense emotional experiences as being vital to a full life, although they can never quite shake the feeling that a part of themselves is split off, uninvolved in the experience. Thus, while they strive for emotional congruency, they often see themselves in some danger of losing touch with their real feelings, which Champions possess in a wide range and variety. In the same vein, Champions strive toward a kind of spontaneous personal authenticity, and this intention always to "be themselves" is usually communicated nonverbally to others, who find it quite attractive. All too often, however, Champions fall short in their efforts to be authentic, and they tend to heap coals of fire on themselves, berating themselves for the slightest self-conscious role-playing.

here's another description:
ENFPs are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting about the older ones for long stretches at a time. Less mature ENFPs may need to feel they are the center of attention all the time, to reassure them that everyone thinks they're a wonderful and fascinating person. .....

ENFPs often have strong, if unconvential, convictions on various issues related to their Cosmic View. They usually try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade people gently of the rightness of these views. ....

ENFPs are pleasant, easygoing, and usually fun to work with. They come up with great ideas, and are a major asset in brainstorming sessions. Followthrough tends to be a problem, however; they tend to get bored quickly, especially if a newer, more interesting project comes along. They also tend to be procrastinators, both about meeting hard deadlines and about performing any small, uninteresting tasks that they've been assigned. ENFPs are at their most useful when working in a group with a J or two to take up the slack.


I think although some of it i think fits me (in bold), most of it doesn't. (and just like in any horoscope, you can always see a bit of yourself in any description - now i try not to be as easily persuaded by these apparently true things.) maybe because the description is keyed towards people who get moderate score in all of the four categories, and really i consider myself an introvert. but the lazy and easily bored part is true. will look for ISFP and INFP description later.

here's where you can take your own test. the purpose of me putting this at the end is because i'm vain and want you to know more about me first, why else would i be blogging about it? more importantly, to my friends abroad, please know that i do love you and miss you even though i can't even bring myself to log online to talk to you. now i've found my excuse! it's a personality defect - i was born with it. you can't blame me for it just like how you're not supposed to laugh at handicapped people. totally. but seriously, come back soon :|

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1:51 AM

exam status: 20 philo mcqs left on thurs

completed: 4 papers
mon: 1pm democratic possibilities 24 hr take home exam/5pm marketing
tues: 1pm management science/5pm business law

studied: since last sunday, non-stop, at chatterbox (usp lounge)

home: visited on the occassion to utilize washing machine

bathed: at src swimming pool, lifeguard looks at me strangely every morning

almost: died. figuratively.

sick: last wednesday at night; fever, was cold even wearing five layers, eyelids were squeezed shut because eyeballs were popping out

food: subway and free raffles hall dinner from jun yi

brother: lost front bottom 2 teeth

sister: weighing 58kg as of today

feeling: free. gloating.

pissed off: got B for philo essay

going to argue with: philo tutor

who is: too retarded to understand me

fatalistic about: training

song: all i ask of you

want to watch: spider lily (upcoming movie), phantom of the opera (sheryl su come back and watch with me!!)

misses: overseas friends and best friend, all of whom am too lazy to actually get in touch with. but still miss much.

guilty: think of great grandma only occassionally.

tuition: managing. teaching 3 now.

sad: alex's dog is dying.

can't help: love for dogs. even if i can't have one, even though i gave away one, even if i don't know whether i really still miss her now, or if it's something i tell myself i should feel. 8 years and going now, i can't be still sad about it.

wonders: where she is, if she's still alive, if she'll still recognize me.

slept on: chatterbox armchairs, chatterbox sofas, chatterbox sofa bed, chatterbox bed, chatterbox tables, chatterbox chairs

i remember most:
penoe colo!
woken up by the most adorable alarm clock
crabby's tail getting pulled
"you're staying here? in chatterbox??!"
"siao!"
"where you bathe?"
vibrator condoms, disposable rings, battery operated?, army stock leaking. in the midst of doing 24hr exam.
mistaking small square flat ribena pastille packets for something else "what? why are they giving away condoms in welfare packs?!"
planning to go to mongolia and tibet and backpack back to singapore in 7 days
doing the 24hr exam.
and the aftermath.
"he has 4 pages single spaced. i have two, double spaced."
eunice's massages
Emo Day
emoemoemoemoemoemoemo...
literally pulled out of bed by the leg
honey milk bubble tea
warm fuzzy feeling
waking up to work, falling asleep to work
being productive
gabriel's gnorrhea (sp) spreading through inflatable sex dolls. both not his.
being walked in on while changing
waiting for guy to be embarrassed and apologize, but he just said "can lend me your shampoo and soap?"
iRack
"it's called the iHouse!" "but there're no windows!" "that's the whole point!! ahahahahah!!!"
waking up in morning to exchange witty unpleasantries with the chem group
on the other hand... i still have five fingers.
"we're going to china!" "yay!" "yay!" "yay!"
irritating gaurav, talking with him makes me so happy
freezing aircon

awaiting continuation as life at chatterbox continues to unfold with newfound buddies. also, realised as i was writing memorable list that sex is a prominent topic in our daily interaction. realised after i realised that that it's because the overnight chatterbox residents are all guys except me. can't belive i have camped there for so long.

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
3:21 PM

stuck in a misery of sickness and Uncertainty Over The Future.

caught the flu last weekend and suffering the aftermath, of lethargy and phlegm-in-every-breath. spent whole of yesterday doing nothing but feeling sorry for self. especially since had to go teach tuitions while running fever, and have both tuition kids forget that IT'S THE FOURTH LESSON OF THE MONTH AND THEIR DESTITUTE TUITION TEACHER NEEDS TO BE PAID OR SHE WILL DIE - DIE FROM APPLECHIPLESS MALNUTRITION IN CONTORTED AGONY. dragged myself off for tuition yesterday night to have the bus break down before it starts. the uncle twisted and turned his key for 20 lightyears, and finally, amidst accusing silence from the passengers queuing to get up, announced that "Sorry hah, the bus no power. I find another bus."

after which he pranced off and we waited beside the Powerless Bus, and finally when it didn't look like it was going to be Empowered anytime soon, i had to call my tutee and explain we need to reschedule because buses were like, out of power.

afterwards spent 1 hr walking meditatively in Cold Storage, which is a very healing place. felt much restored afterwards.

and thoughts about transferring faculties have been plaguing me. i am confronted with two choices: 1) get a Business degree with lousy honours, and hence miserable job prospects; or 2) get an Arts degree with better honours, and hence miserable job prospects.

my quarterlife crisis can hence be summarised into this thought: what if i become an insurance seller? or worse, what if i become a teacher?

everything is exacerbated considering my procrastinating in getting an internship, trying for scholarships, etc. currently hoping to fill up june holidays by taking a module called Chinese Thought and Culture, which will being me to Peking University for guest lectures for 2 weeks, and i will thus be Enriched, not to mention that i only need to spend 1 bidding point on it, since it's by pre-allocation.

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