stuck in a misery of sickness and Uncertainty Over The Future.
caught the flu last weekend and suffering the aftermath, of lethargy and phlegm-in-every-breath. spent whole of yesterday doing nothing but feeling sorry for self. especially since had to go teach tuitions while running fever, and have both tuition kids forget that IT'S THE FOURTH LESSON OF THE MONTH AND THEIR DESTITUTE TUITION TEACHER NEEDS TO BE PAID OR SHE WILL DIE - DIE FROM APPLECHIPLESS MALNUTRITION IN CONTORTED AGONY. dragged myself off for tuition yesterday night to have the bus break down before it starts. the uncle twisted and turned his key for 20 lightyears, and finally, amidst accusing silence from the passengers queuing to get up, announced that "Sorry hah, the bus no power. I find another bus."
after which he pranced off and we waited beside the Powerless Bus, and finally when it didn't look like it was going to be Empowered anytime soon, i had to call my tutee and explain we need to reschedule because buses were like, out of power.
afterwards spent 1 hr walking meditatively in Cold Storage, which is a very healing place. felt much restored afterwards.
and thoughts about transferring faculties have been plaguing me. i am confronted with two choices: 1) get a Business degree with lousy honours, and hence miserable job prospects; or 2) get an Arts degree with better honours, and hence miserable job prospects.
my quarterlife crisis can hence be summarised into this thought: what if i become an insurance seller? or worse, what if i become a teacher?
everything is exacerbated considering my procrastinating in getting an internship, trying for scholarships, etc. currently hoping to fill up june holidays by taking a module called Chinese Thought and Culture, which will being me to Peking University for guest lectures for 2 weeks, and i will thus be Enriched, not to mention that i only need to spend 1 bidding point on it, since it's by pre-allocation.
